About the book: 2023 / I constantly tried to find his eyes, his smile in passers-by... I wanted to plunge again into this world of pain, tenderness and power. His scent constantly hovered over me. I began to have trouble sleeping. I became uninterested in sex with my husband, although I still loved him very much. I was constantly waiting for a call or message from him. But he seemed to have disappeared into obscurity. There was no longer any strength to wait. I understood that I needed him like air.