About the book: year / For years I dreamed of what college life could bring, and although some things changed, there was always one constant. No matter how wildly I let my imagination run wild, in the end it always led me to the same place. This led me to him. My future was clear and so was he. Until suddenly... he was gone. Now I'm just a shell of who I was, on a path too blurry to follow, with no way out in sight. No way up. They say first love lasts forever. This is exactly what I'm afraid of.