About the book: 2013 / Living without hope for the future, you unconsciously begin to delve into the past. Analyzing what you have lived, you understand: it was lived uselessly, meaninglessly, in vain - you perceive it with fear. There were undoubtedly glimpses of happiness, but basically your story consists of countless mistakes, pain and betrayals. The past cannot be changed, and dreaming about the future is stupid when your present is a hospital bed and an insane desire to shorten your already short life. Where can you find the desire to endure when every new day is filled with excruciating pain throughout your whole body? Where to get the strength to become happy in spite of everything in a very vague future?..