About the book: year / “I don’t know anything, I don’t know myself at all. Tonight showed that I have no idea what to expect from myself. It turns out that I am capable of a lot. This thought - strange, new - scares me and makes me happy at the same time. I am much worse than who I thought I was. I am capable of lies, betrayal, and spontaneous actions. I, who grew up in the shadow of my mother, a liar by profession and by nature, I, who deeply condemned any lie, believed in the power of reason and the irresponsibility of feelings, and was not afraid of their irresponsibility…»